我不知道這是什麼

我真的不知道

我也不知道他要往哪裡走

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Judas knows he is going to regret it.

However, after had 12 beers in a line, anything seems acceptable and reasonable.
Especially when you know you can’t find a way to escape the unexplainable anxiety, hurt yourself and make a mark may be a good idea.
Maybe not, but who cares?

“Are you sure you want this?” It’s Simon beside him, sounds really worry.
“Shut up and pick one.” Judas says.

Simon thinks he should notice that something went really wrong when Judas called him out tonight.
They headed to a bar, after 8 beers, Judas started to ask him if he knows any tattoo shop nearby.
He had noticed Judas is not in a good mood, but he thought it would be fine after some beers, and a chat over the tattoo seems harmless.

And turned out he was totally wrong, when Judas finished his 12 beers and grabbed him to one of shop he just mentioned, the one he said would ask no question as far as they could get money.

Simon wondered if he should call Jesus for this, but Judas took his phone away once he took it out.
“Don’t you dare to call him.” Judas said.

So obviously something went wrong between them, Simon sighs and decides to give up.
Judas is not like himself right now, but Judas won’t give up tonight.
He could at least pick a good tattoo for his friend.

The one wouldn't make him be slashed into pieces by his own brother.

Simon picks a ringed abstract tattoo, a simple one you can get used to it soon.
Judas picks a dragon for himself, a stupid kind dragon Simon thinks he wouldn’t like even when he was 9.

Two tattooists start to work on both side, Simon could tell that it’s really hurt when the needles sting inside the skin, especially hurt for someone who doesn’t get into any fights like Judas.

How a stupid way to find an excuse for crying.
“You idiot.” Simon sighs again and says, helps his friend wiping tears away.

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Judas知道他會後悔的。

然而，在喝了12瓶啤酒之後，一切似乎都是可以接受和合理的。

尤其是當你無法找到一種方法來逃避這種無法解釋的焦慮時，傷害自己並留下一個印記也許是個好主意。

也許不是，但誰在乎？

「你真的想要嗎？」Simon在他身邊，聽起來真的很擔心。
「閉嘴然後選一個。」Judas說。

Simon覺得，他應該在Judas把他叫出去時，就意識到有什麼事情不對勁了。

他們去了一家酒吧，喝了8杯啤酒後，Judas開始問他附近有沒有紋身店。

他有注意到Judas心情不好，但幾杯啤酒總該解決吧？而聊聊紋身這話題也沒什麼害處。

結果證明他完全錯了，當Judas喝完他的12瓶啤酒，把他抓到剛才提到的一家刺青店，那家他說只要能賺錢就不會問任何問題的。

當Judas拿著紋身書，直接付了兩個大紋身的錢時，Simon真的很擔心。

他知道錢已經沒了，沒人能把它從這家商店拿回來。

西門不知道他是否應該為此打電話給Jesus，但他一拿出手機，Judas就把它拿走了。
「別想打給他。」Judas說。

顯然他們之間出了問題，Simon嘆了口氣，決定放棄。

Judas現在不像他自己，但他今晚不會放棄。
Simon至少可以為他的朋友挑一個好的紋身。

選個不會讓他被自己的兄弟碎屍萬段的。

Simon選擇了一個環狀的抽象紋身，一個你很快就能習慣的簡單的那種紋身。
Judas為自己挑選了一條龍，一條蠢到Simon認為他自己即使在9歲的時候也不會喜歡的龍。

兩名紋身師在Judas的兩側開始工作，Simon知道針扎到皮膚裡面會很疼，特別是對於像Judas這從來不打架的人來說。

怎麼會蠢到幫哭泣找這樣一個藉口。
「你這白痴。」Simon又嘆了口氣，幫他的朋友擦掉眼淚。

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我想知道發生甚麼事了？？？？

到底？？？？？？？

如果我說這是　刺青 + 主動誘惑 + 聚光燈下的他 而出來的東西？？？？？

然後誰再來跟我解釋一下怎麼只有前兩句是Judas視角後面全都是Simon視角？？？？