噢不

寫作需要我嘗試登入以前的帳號，面對我快兩年後依然不敢看的對話
才發現我連帳號名字都搞錯了，現在失去所有能回望過去的途徑

omg i found a way to check past messages and the moment I turned that on my heart aches. it won't stop. i cannot open the chatbox. i dread looking at it.

just why did i do that