so in short. mom's only income is 1600 a month, mine is only 400, dez is only 700 that they can throw to rent. rent is 3000 now.

that is less than 3000 you might say! correct! plus there are more bills. 30 for internet, 150 for phone, 100-150 for electricity, 100 for streaming services I would very much like to cut but am not allowed to. 100 for storage. so about 500 more before food and grocery costs.

additional food/grocery costs are a good 600, easily.

so current costs are that monthly the household needs to pull in about 4100 or so a month, with our income of 2700, leaving a "survive and have no roses with our bread" deficit of 1400. not great.

so I've been looking for work because that's all I can do. but. I'm so burnt out from the search. if I could just do commissions it'd be one thing, but I'm so exhausted that I can't even get a portfolio together.