and they get away scott free after im left with so many wounds. they promised me so many things and got me so vulnerable only to hurt me and use my own words, feelings, and experiences as weapons. im so broken due to these people and they leave me to just deal with it.

i dont even get a sorry. they tell others im a horrible person who has abused, manipulated, and spreads drama when it was THEM who hurt me and made me this way!! i dont want to be any of the things they said, and i hope im not deep inside, but now i cant help BUT feel like im the reason all of this trauma is on me.

this is the closest ive ever been to self harming and i cant make myself do it because im scared that even that will be used against me. i cant do anything. even when i do nothing theyre still out to get me. i cant get my life and childhood back due to these men. im so violated and i cant even keep the person to comfort me.

sorry i hate fucking venting due to all these shitty experiences but im desperate for anyone to just hear me out. i wish i wasnt so awful

im sorry sam i hope you can get some peace soon

cloud_teeth: ily dw im okay!! i just get super emotional but i promise I'm not dying 24/7 like I'm embarrassed i vented bc i feel better now 😔