I always seem to miss the best opportunities. When faced with a cold response, I immediately flinch. I couldn't shamelessly approach him and ask for forgiveness.
Especially after hearing her complain to relatives before, I suddenly felt that my depression was really a burden.

I have never been good at expressing myself, and as far back as I can remember, I have always disliked people more than praised them.

But that doesn't seem surprising, after all, I make the same mistakes all the time.

I'm just such a stubborn stone that doesn't know how to change.
Even if you want to change it, what you do will be the opposite of what you want.

I've always been afraid of doing the wrong thing or saying the wrong thing. Even if my family doesn't understand, I have to ask. But if I really ask, the feedback I get will be blank stares and disappointment.
I really don't like to talk and I don't like to argue with others.

But my very existence seems to cause controversy, even if I don't mean to offend anyone.
I feel very depressed.

I don't understand more and more what my mother and my relatives think about me.

Maybe in the eyes of my family, I am just a useless loser, right?

No matter how hard I try to cheer myself up, I just feel like I don’t have enough energy.
But even if this is the case, everyone will still think that I am not satisfied if I don’t work hard and live too happily, so I won’t suffer from depression, right?
It’s just when you are too happy that you have time to think too much and then become depressed, right?

It would be great if our country didn't find the motivation to live at that time.
It's just that saying such things will only annoy people.

It’s time to stop talking about frustration, I have to go for an interview at noon this Saturday.