Jazz is being put down. She has an aggressive cancerous tumor pushing on her bladder.

I don't know as much as I could since I opted to stay home due to my father taking her and my brothers to tend to her care.

I'm still no contact with him.

But the vet explained that the prognosis was very bleak, so it's kinder to Jazz to put her down while she's not tremendously suffering.

The particular cancer she has apparently would not be very responsive to chemotherapy.

She's also 9 years old, and a large breed at that.

So it would also be risky to do any surgery. She also would need to be catheterized every time she needed to urinate.

So it's just... it wouldn't be good or kind to her to try to keep her here.

I'm so sorry

We apparently caught it in an earlier stage as well. It's just. Not good.

Blu probably realized that her sister wasn't feeling well, so she's not been eating as much, either.

So I'm going to let her have cookies in her dinner tonight.

I’m so sorry. /hugs

Thank you.

Poor Blu. She's going to be so confused when her sister just... doesn't come back.

I am so sorry

I got to call in while she's being sedated. I told her what a good girl she is.

She's fighting it a lot.

my brothers are with her though, so...

Oldest told me that she keeps trying to get up and walk out the door.

And that she was offered chocolate and refused.

She's always been very particular of what she ate, haha.

It had to be in her bowl or no go.

*minus cookies

cookies were fair game

I'm so sorry

oh, I am so so sorry... Its always such a hard choice to make. I'm so sorry you have to make it.

Yeah. But it really is what was best for her. If she was younger, we probably would have attempted anything to try to boost her odds,
But at 9 years old, and given what we think her species mix was, it was just.. too old of an age to risk hurting her more with trying.

I'm thinking about you and wish you comfort. It sounds like you all made the best decision. It's not always an easy decision to have to bear.

fuck...

fucking cancer. every single time it takes someone away, pet or family or otherwise, I feel the urge to hurt whatever divine being thought it was a good idea to let it happen

i hope she passed peacefully, Siv

My brothers came back with more information. It took her 3 doses of sedative to finally fall asleep, the tumor was called a malignant sarcoma, and she also apparently busted the metal supports in her left leg and had "developed a lot of muscle and scar tissue on the right leg."

They also requested two paw prints: one of her front paw (she would hit the glass door to be let out) and the back left (where the metal supports were.)

She was pretty anxious for the sedative.

she was protesting and wanting to stay for just a while longer...

Yeah.

fuck. :c

The worst problem was that because of how the tumor's positioning was, it was making her incapable of urinating on her own. If she hadn't been taken in, her bladder likely would have burst.

So...

Having to give her a catheter every day on top of the cancer just... I don't think it would have been good for her.

mm...

I reiterate. fuck cancer. just... fuck it.

Yeah. Absolutely.

It took away my maternal aunt, too.

losing a pet is never easy

No, it really isn't.

I'll be alright, in time.

I'm so sorry 💕 sending you peaceful vibes.

Thank you.

oh... all the love, wow. I'm so sorry.....

I'm so sorry Siv...

hugs for you ;_; I am so sorry

Thanks.

It's weird already. I keep moving to step over her since she was always resting at my feet...

Either at my feet or right inside of my doorway so I couldn't shut it. XD

omg i'm so sorry for your loss

Thank you.

The thing about doors, when the sedative finally took effect, she decided that she wanted to sleep in the doorway of the room she was in. Or so my brothers told me.

jazz...... ): i'm so sorry

i know we don't talk much anymore but i'm always here if you need someone to talk to

Thanks. I appreciate it.